Wooooooooooooow.

It's been a long long long time.
I know my blog needs further updates but the last few months have been super exciting and I had no time for anything.

As many of you know I enrolled into college. At the end of the story it's Vanderbilt University and not san diego state or yale university.
But i'm glad i made this decision. I love Nashville.
It's not too big but not a small town either.
A little too cold though if you ask me. We have snow here during the winter. Something I only knew from Germany haha.
College is like in a movie. You go out you eat and you head to class still in a hangover from last night.
I love being with Ashley because she and I had been friends since first grade and she goes to school with me now.
Life here is very different from living in california or germany.
Tennesseee is typical American.. well it's the south so I knew that before.
Considering that my mom grew up in TN and raised us pretty southern it's okay for me. But looking at life back in cali .. nothing compared to now haha.
Bad girl gone good I would say.
I study a lot harder now and I got my latin degree with a 97% this year.
my parent's back home are kinda kicking my ass so I can early graduate.
I study psychology now. It took me a long long time to figure out my major but I think I choosed the right major for me.
Dr.Anna helping patients all the time haha :D

I still can't believe I turned 21 last year !! Now i'm full grown up. Well at least in law.
Things that happened to me this year:

- 21st birthday bash :
oh yea I barely remember what happened. At the end of the party I had like 400 people in my house not knowing where they all came from haha. That was when I had my first black out.

- my parents bought me a new car!!??
seriously. I already have a nice car here but for my 21st birthday they bought me a lexus..
I was like... wow. I knew there was something wrong about the fact that my parents bought me a car like that.
And so I was like : "What's the deal now?"
mommy said: " Now that you have this nice car you can't expect us to give you much money anymore for you to buy clothes or go out. "
Actually the car was only a lame excuse to make me become a reliable responsable person.. or poor person haha.
So I had to do something immediatly.
which lead to :

-getting a job at Abercrombie&Fitch.
I went there to ask if there are any jobs availiable at the moment. I was really surprised when they immediatly wanted my application and CV and employee me.
I worked there a couple times when they told me to see the manager.
I thought I did something really wrong and they are gonna fire me haha
Turned out to be a wrong conclusion. Seems like they wanted me for another position.
They asked me to join the A&F model agency IMD. Of course I was like hell yea.
After dealing with my agency back in Germany, I could work out something with A&F and I signed a contract.
At the end of the story I was really lucky that I got a job so fast and what a job ! Shows me that everything is possible if you believe :)


Well I guess thats it for now haha. I hope I get to post more regularly soon.

Never ending Story..

L.O.V.E is a never ending story.
Best lovesongs ever :
Anna's playlist
1.Love Story - Taylor Swift
2,Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
3.Total eclipse of the heart - Bonnie Taylor
4.I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith
5.You're beautiful - James Blunt
6.Dernière chance - Léa Castel feat Soprano
7.Don't speak - No doubt
8.I will always love you - Whitney Houston
9.Fallin - Alicia Keys
10.Adore you - Lil Rain
11.I hate this part - Pussycat Dolls
12.Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield
13.Love the way you lie - Rihanna feat Eminem
14.Living to love you - Sarah Connor
15.Time after time - Cyndi Lauper
16.Eternal flame - Bangels

Let's hear it for New York!

pictures taken by Philipp R.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/philippphotos

As I went to New York city, I didn't know what was expecting me.. but I have to say that I love the city that never sleeps.
Who would have thought that I'd be chilling in central park and taking the subway to times square so soon, considering that you've read or seen about those monomental places before in magazines or on tv.
Annnd what I love about NYC best is BARNEYS!
I really thought I was dead and in shopping paradise.
After shopping at Barneys we went to metropolitan museum.
Even though I thought a museum is not really the place where I love spending my spare time, was the art of metropolitan museum unique. Unique like New York.
People in New York are so extraordinary and nothing compared to people on West coast.
Nobody stopps for anything.
Everything is possible there and there really IS nothing you can't do.
You'll see rich and poor people and there are stories out there.
Stories about people and their origin.
Ive never been to a place like NYC before and I really want to go back there.
New york is kind of a legend and now I know why.

My favourite song at the moment

Everyone tries to be somebody...

Today we are all aspiring of being somebody.
Maybe I AM being paranoid but it seems like everyone is claiming to be somebody else.
We are all part of a big game. We are chessmen in a game where nobody wants to be a pawn.
Each chessman wants to reach the other side of the field to become a queen.
But to god we are all coequal.
He doesn't judge us from our socıal standart and so should we do.
I grew up in a place of superficiality. A Place, you WILL be judged from your bank balance and a place where real friendship is a foreign word and a place that is suffering from sway of racism.
While I'm sailing with our luxurious yacht on East coast near portland, sipping at my champaign and watching sexy life guards smiling from there platform, a mother is worried how to nourish her little baby.
Tell me is that fair? I'm not saying I am not enjoying this kind of lifestyle but bad conscience is killing me.
Can we arrange with ourselves chilling all day and eating and drinking whatever we want at the same time a baby dies due to hunger and poverty?
How can we ever stop this unfairness and will there ever be an oppurtunity to abate the spread between rich and poor?
The desire to be somebody the people wıll look up at is bigger than being somebody who stops this unfairness.
I would rather look up at somebody who finds a way to stop homeless and poverty than somebody who's earned thousands of dollars with bad pop musıc.
To me they have nothing about an idol.

Today's song of the day: Handlebars by Flobots
Hands in the air for Flobots.

What a girl want - Annas favourite labels

Valentino






Burberry







Oscar de la Renta







Chloé







Guccı

Gossip Girl

Okay guys it's official known now. I'm addicted!! It's an addiction named Gossip Girl!!
Uhh I love that shit. Keep watching it all day and all night long haha.
I'm done with season 1 and two now and almost with season 3.
B and S are my favourites ;)





Blair Waldorf


Serena van der Wootsen

Book Review: Rising sun

As many of you have already heard, has Stephenie Meyer published a new book named "Rising Sun".
The book is about Bree Tenner who is mentioned in the 3rd part of the Twilight Saga Eclipse.
She is a part of the vampire army that Victoria has created to revenge James who has once been her mate.
Bree Tenner thinks that she can't go out at day because someone made her believe she couldn't resist sunlight. By the time, Bree gets to know that many rumors about being a vampire are not true and especially that her creator has lied to her and her new friend Diego.
Together, the two of them, are trying to find out why Victoria is creating a big army of vampires to protect herself from one of her enemies.
Bree finds out that they're not the only vampires in the area.
For some reason the Volturi find out about Victoria's plan and so they came there to do what they have to do and to abide the rules.
Bree is a big part of a war that they can not win.
As the only vampire who's ever getting the chanche to face Bella, she would have survived if the Volturi weren't involved in that.
But Bree dies at the end of the book which I knew before I read "rising sun".

Rising sun is a book that you don't have to read to make up the actual Twilight story which is based on the lovestory between Edward and Bella.
It is more like an addition to the novel that gives you backround information.
If they're necessary you can decide for yourself.
Rising Sun is written in simple English and the information about Bree and her army are short and simple.
I personally think Bree is telling us her story in a compleatly different way than Bella does.
At the begging you may have your problems but if you keep reading the book gives you a lot of information you wouldn't have expected before.
Although I actually liked the book, to me Twilight still concerns Bella and Edward and their never ending love story .
What do I need a book for that does not even is about the actual reason why I like Twilight so much?
It's cool to get to know more about this crazy and mysterious world of vampires buuuut for the price of 15 euro? i'm not sure if this is a little unecessary.
I would have better liked an official version of Midnight sun which is the first Twilight book from Edwards view.
The book was written to make some more money.. or well maybe not written for this reason but published.
Don't get influenced by my point of view. Buy the book and form your own opinion :)

Germany ..!

yea it's anna. again:D
just wanted to let you know that i'm about to leave germany and go back to cali and to SDSU.
I will miss you guys and i will miss my siblings who are still living in germany.
I will miss sneaking out to smoke a cigarette together with my brother.
I will miss being able to ask my sister what I should wear.
I will miss complaining to my best friend about how stupid ppl are.
and I will miss this one person who understands me and doesn't care about the negative sides about me..
I know i've made a lot of mistakes but don't get me wrong you did too..
we both screwed up things.
will there ever be any "us"?
I don't know.. but i hope i can figure out in time.
It's not too late.
Still not too late to say sorry and to ask for forgiveness?
All our songs are overplayed on my ipod and all our conversations are hammered in my head.

Forgiveness. What is forgiveness actually?
Today i've talked to a friend about this.
Can you forgive?
Who can?
Could you forgive a man who's killed someone? Maybe even one of your friends/relatives?
Have you ever asked yourself if you could forgive a man like that?
Would you still catch him when he falls?
Does people like this man deserve to be catched? or is everything they deserve hell?
Is he cursed to die alone in a room?
Open up your heart!
everybody deserves to be loved don't you think?
Making mistakes is human. Forgive a fried who's disappointed you and forgive a father who's run away from resposability. Forgive a teacher for giving you bad marks at school and forgive your sister for messing up the things.

Very deep but so true.
:)
see you guys.

Life issues

Hey guuuuyyss.
I know it's been a loooong time.
But finnaly i'm back . And I'm blogging.
Soo what has happened the last few month?
Nothing much actually. Anna has retreated. Needed some more time to think about everything .
I just figured out how complicated life actually is.
There'll be always another issue and you have to come up with solutions.
Everytime you think : "Hey I think I'm happy at the moment", you'll see ,that there are further problems, just waiting to be solved.
but afterwards, you'll be fine.
You'll survive when someone breaks your heart and you'll survive fights with friends.
everything that doesn't kill you, makes you even stronger.

Most asked questions.

Are you real?
Yessssssss I'm 100% real!

Are u a model?
Yes again.I am a model but at the moment I don't require for jobs.

Why have u moved to germany?
Because my dad's german and he wanted to live her. He could easily convince my mother and sooo that's the end of the story!

How long have u been in Germany?
For almost five years I guess.

What do you prefer, California or Germany?
Uhm that's not an easy question. I like both countries. But Cali, I'd say. that's where I grew up.

What's your natural hair colour?
Blonde :)

Do you believe in god ?
Yess, I do!

What you do with your teeths?
Uhm nothing special actually. Just brush'em twice a day and I wore braces for 2 years.

How tall are you?
178 cm , 5.84 feed and 70.08inches ;)

What's your favourite colour?
I don't really prefer a certain colour. But I like magenta.

What kind of guy do you feel attracted to?
I think there are three main points : He should be intelligent, good-looking and aspiring. But he shouldn't bee too good looking due to my jealousy.

Do you have any siblings?
Oh yes. I have four. 1 brother and 3 sisters.

How good is your german?
Pretty good, I'd say. I can speak it fluently .

How do you like Germany?
Hm I like it. But I think the people are unfriendly.

Life Document

Hey guys. It's Anna - AGAIN!
I have to be real quick. I'm about to leave but I haven't updatet my blog in a while so I thought ,I might better update it or else I'll lose my readers ;)
What I've been doing since my last blog? Uhm nothing actually... life seems boring as hell .
My last activity only was when i deleted my myspace friends haha.
Why? Because I don't need people in my friendlist, I know for a fact I've never met them in my life.
Ow and I've had a fake on facebook! Haha that was kinda crazy cuz ppl thought the girl named "Ashley" ,who was stealing my pics, was me!
It took them some time and some conviction to delete her account on there..
I really hate those rumors.. they're just annoying.
I don't even know why people love to pretend they're me. I'm not really special, i'm just normal man!
My life is really boring. I'm not in a relationship with any celebraty and I'm not a top model.. You might be disappointed but that's just a fact!
I'm a little american girl who has spent a part of her life in germany.
I'm just a student and I'd say I'm a total overarchiever - Let me say nerd!
Everything I love is figure skating and hanging around with friends. My life is really boring to be honest!
And I just love blogging because I like sharing my mind. I like discussing about stupid shit and love acting childish as hell.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid but I feel like people always judge me from what they THINK I am..
god's fair! he gives people always good sides and bad sides.
Well I have an idea ;) I want YOU guys to be a part of my next post if you want.
Ask me questions and email me ! :)
I'll come up with answers -I promise!
See ya guys.

quotation of the day

"the more you want to change the world, the more you have to change yourself."- y berg

Song of the day!

Listen to Possibility - Lykke Li




There's a Possibility,
There's a Possibility,
All that I had was all I'm gonna get

Hmmm....

There's a Possibility,
There's a Possibility,
All I'm gonna get is gonna be yours then
All I'm gonna get is gonna be yours then

So tell me when you hear my heart stop
You're the only one that knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

Hmmm.....
Hmmm...

know that when you leave,
Know that when you leave,
By blood and by me, you walk like a thief,
By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave.

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You're the only one that knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know
So tell me when my silence's over
You're the reason why I'm closed
Tell me when you hear me falling
There's a possibility it wouldn't show

Hmmm...
Hmmm...

By blood and by me, and I'll fall when you leave
By blood and by me, I follow your lead

1 ,2 3..

GETTING OLD!

I'm 21 this year and although I'm really not at all sorry to see my teenage years pass me I cant deny I wont miss them. Not only did I discover so much about myself, I realized what I want to do with my life - a descision I was sure would take me years to figure out. My early teenage years were full of sillyness.

I miss being young and in denial. I miss having no reason to do something stupid and have no consequence. Dying my hair occured regulary in my younger years, and even went red? Yes. Red. Stupid, Anna, Stupid. Life seemed so simple and easy back then, the years of being 14, 15, 16 and even 17 were some of the best times in my life. I met people who have changed my outlook on life. I think differently to how I did back then, I never used to over anazlyse life as much as I do now, now I need a reason for what I do rather then just going with the flow. True, I'm still as silly and maybe immature at times but now has nothing on back then. I wish I could just be, say, 14 again. Just head to school normally and the only worry I'd have would be my homework.I miss chilling at home in the evening with my best friend. Backbiting about stupid teachers and classmates:D

So much pressure amounts nowadays, and I somewhat long for my old exams that I sat when I was younger. They seem nothing on what I do. But you've to grow hey? Wise up. Hopefully I have. Sure, I'm stupid at times, I make silly mistakes but now it seems there is a bigger conquence facing me if I fail now. Even though it wasnt all fun and games those years ago I realized they were actually some of my happiest

Happy New year!

2009 - what a year!

Anna's year 2009

Soo guys. It has been a while, I know and I really apologize for not updating the last few days.
This is gonna be a long post actually.
I don't even know if it makes any sense to post this stuff here actually.
What I have been doing since my last blog?
Not much actually.I'm currently killing time before I meet my girlfriend tonight.
Oh yes I still have to work on the run up to christmas like most others out there
Christmas is coming soon and so the time's like running away from me.

I'm pretty exited though. It's very possible that I won't be able to update over Christmas cus I'm about to leave here and spend some time with the family.
Considering we have December now, I guess it's time for a year-end retrospective .

To me personal, 2009 was a very special year. I've passed my school exam(Abitur)and started to live my own life without my family's direct help.
Many things which happened this year have changed me and my basic personality a lot.
I became independent actually. Before we continue, let's review the course objectives. Like I already metioned, I haven't figured out what exactly I wanna become in a few years.
Otherwise, I'm not even sure if it's necessary to be always 100% sure about facts and future.
I've learned this year to sometimes look on the other side of life. Not to believe in lies that easily anymore is something I've learned this year, too.
Politically considered, this year has been silhouetted against other years.
WE HAVE A BLACK PRESIDENT!
Can you believe it? If you had told me we're gonna have a black president I would have laughed at you.
But time passed and so America DID change. We're not a that self-refering nation anymore, as the world brandet us. I mean, Obama is still alive, isn't he?
Apropos crazy nation. Recently, I watched a really random video about the "Most hated family in America"

America's most hated family

It's about an extendet family and about their crazy kind of lifestyle and faith in god.
Watch it by yourself and I'm sure you will agree that they'd better go and see the doctor..
However, back to politics. In Germany the jobless rate rises more and more. People become lazy and are not even willing to work and to earn because they're parasite and like to rest on our money. The gonverment is to busy with "saving our environment" and they don't wanna see the actual problem.
Anyways, how we can keep doing this has yet to be determinated!

Okay let's regard love.
This year has been very shaky.
I've been trough a lot of shitty relationships and I've met a lof of interesting people in 2009.
As I'd never expected meeting a boy who's not gonna judge me from my outer appearance, I met someone..
It was pretty funny to look behind his HUGE wall and to notice little things which showed me he's into me.
It's not that easy sometimes but after all I can just wait and see!
Now, that I've seen I need real love people mocked me for the fact, I want some real love. They were thinking about the many games I've played with many hearts.
The person I'm talking about, knows that he's meant!

Alright.
This is enough for today I guess. I want to say thank you for the amazing year and I'm grateful, that my family provided me the oppurtunity to make some compleatly new experiences and supported me in every way.
A few friends have been here the whole time. Stood by my side and overcame problems with me. Thank you guys so much. I love you all.
And at the very end, I want to thank Jane. I don't know her for a long time yet, but I can say that I already consider her as one of the most important parts of my life.


Family


Abi09!


I'm so glad I found you guys!


I love chilling at the beach with you hun! ♥


What a crazy Halloween??


That was 2009!

The media!

Anna's summary about media

The media
There are over 1.500.000.000 people currently using the internet.
This rate is pretty high considering we have a population of 6.500.000.000.
I did a little survey about using the media recently and my friends told me they can’t imagine of a life without the media anymore.

What’s about the media making our community freaking out?

Actually, I’m using a few instant messengers ,facebook ,twitter, myspace.. etc..
Honestly. Who of you never made any negative experiences with using the media?
Let’s regard virtual life games. Many youth or adults neglect their real life thanks to their virtual life online.
So many World of Warcraft addicted people spend their entire spare time with sitting in front of a screen and role-playing stupid ugly characters on a unrealistic computer game in a unrealistic computer world.
It has been alarming because they forget everything around and just concentrate on this stupid game.
Families and relationships get destroyed due to computer games addiction.
Violence games are the reason for youth freaking out and becoming criminal or violent.

Bullying is a big problem about the internet, too. Many people are way too cowardly dissing somebody face to face.
But long live the internet! Internet gives people the opportunity to bully people online. It’s named Cyber-Bullying.
Without the internet ,our every day life wouldn’t have that many complications sometimes ,I think!

I had to learn one thing the hard way. Be careful with sharing your privacy!
Your identity can be faked by someone else and your pictures can be taken for any illegal activities.

Ok. Now you’re gonna ask yourself : Hey, if there are so many disadvantages about the internet, why is she still using it?
Alright. Of course the internet gives us a lot of advantages too!
For example, communication!
Internet, gives us the opportunity to keep in touch with our friends and to make new friends with people from foreign countries and all over the world.
I’m currently not living in my home country and that’s why I’m deeply grateful because of the internet!
It makes it so much easier to stay in contact with my friends/family.

Publishing ourselves is why internet got that important to us the last few years.

Okay guys, I want to hear your opinion about this issue now!

"The hole"

Like Bella said in New Moon :"It's like a huge hole has been punched into my chest"

If you really love somebody, that makes it so much more difficult to leave somebody behind you and to turn your back on him.
I always thought, I would never make the same mistakes again but I erred..
It's always the same.Everything I do, I'm not doing it for myself..
As I realized what actually happens to me, it was too late.
When I was younger, I got hurt a lot and that's why I never let anybody close to me.
Only a few people around me were allowed to see behind the curtain.
After my last relationship I swore that I'm not going to hurl myself into another "not-working" ralationship.
I wanted to be careful who I'm gonna trust and whom i'm gonna give my heart.
It hurts so much to realize ,that you never had the opportunity to get over it.
Unless, there were a few things which made my life awful sometimes, I would not have grown up as the person I am.
Friends are like stars. You cannot always see them-but they're always there?
I guess, there are certain friends who wouldn't be false. Friends who listen and who'd never feel bothered.
Higher than the highest mountain and brighter than the brightest star!
That's the secret to the best friendship.
To take care of your friends doesn't include the matter of course to get back what you once gave!
Actually, you never get back what you deserve on average.
Pick out your true, real friends and start to classify your friends into groups.
It necessary having a few friends to go out with and a few friends to overcome problems with.
I never wanted to see any of my friends unhappy and I want everything but not lose them..
But something you need to learn at least by doing is saying good-bye.
Don't get influenced by the first impression!


Try this song by "A Fine Frenzy"

Almost Lover

It's Christmas time!

Jingle bells, Jingle Bells, jingle all the way..!

Soo. It's December 2nd now and I already opend my second window on my advent calendar..
That means ,it's time to go back home and spend some time with the family.
I've been thinking about christmas presents recently and I actually figured out that we don't really need them.
Christmas presents have been considered as a must-have for christmas.
Most ppl forget the actual reason we sit together and celebrate the Nativity.
As I went to the church last sunday I went through the importance of Christmas by myself.
I arrived at the conclusion that we'd celebrate Christmas as a festivity of love.
Let's spread love! There's never enough love around us in today's world.
While we read these phrases, around the world are currently dying a few thousand of people due to hunger or poverty.
However. We'd be happy about what god gave us and should appreciate it as much as possible!

And that's why I did a little research and selected the Christmas Story. The Gospel of Luke.


The Birth of Jesus
1In those days Caesar Augustus issued a decree that a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. 2(This was the first census that took place while Quirinius was governor of Syria.) 3And everyone went to his own town to register.

4So Joseph also went up from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem the town of David, because he belonged to the house and line of David. 5He went there to register with Mary, who was pledged to be married to him and was expecting a child. 6While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, 7and she gave birth to her firstborn, a son. She wrapped him in cloths and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.
The Shepherds and the Angels
8And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. 9An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ[a] the Lord. 12This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."

13Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
14"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."

15When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let's go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about."

16So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger. 17When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, 18and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds said to them. 19But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. 20The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.

Film review

New Moon!

When I got outta the cinema I was hypnotized because of this emotional movie with all it's romantic scenes.
Well, actually I didn't really like the first movie "twilight" because it was so different to the actual book and only by watching the movie you couldn't retrace Bella's strong feelings for Edward.
Cath has done a good job but I think it could have been better.
New Moon beated the pants off Twilight and I almost cried 3 times haha.
First, when Edward left Bella , second, when Bella was left there alone and suffering from Edwards gone and third when Bella and Edward were together again. That was so hard that i was almost about to leave the cinema haha.
Sounds funny but in general i'm a very sensitive person and so I really took New moon close to my heart.
Beside the emotional part, the movie had a lot of funny scenes, too.
Jasper cracked a really funny joke and Em was funny as usual.
I liked the last scene best because Jacob was fighting against Edward, which wasn't actually written in the book.
Anyways, I really want to see them fight. No I'm not a sadist but I think Bella has to realize what she's doing to them.
For that matter, the action in the movie was absolutely great.
I liked the wolfes a lot even I think Emily was a bit too ugly and her scar wasn't flashy enough.
A few scenes weren't necessary tho. For example when Bella had to get needled and you could see the entire scene and how Carlisle did his job. Things like that were a little negative about the movie.
Oh my god the Volturi looked so creepy! I nearly got goosebumps when I saw them.
Dakota is the perfect Jane. Honestly! Like her so much.
Volterra in the movie was how I expected it to look like. When I read the book, I visualized an old-looking typical italian village with basic colour orange.

All in all I have to say New Moon was a lot better than Twilight, and I'm really excited to watch Eclipse soon.

written by Anna-Maria K.